Friday, May 8, 2009
Revengeful

determined to have revenge; vindictive.
Synonyms:malevolent, malicious, malignant. Also see Spiteful.

Someone used that word on me. To a certain extent I know he doesn't really mean it (or maybe he does...but i rather believe otherwise) Nevertheless. that hurts.

People ask if character is part of nature or nutured over time. I would say nutured. A lot of times I wonder if I would be a different person if somethings never happened in my life. Who doesn't wish their life could be just a bed of roses, full of hearts, rainbows and unicorns.

If you grow up watching people bully your mum while yoo feel so helpless because yoo were too young to be heard. When yoo wake up in the middle of the night listening to yoor mummy sobbing under the blankets. When you are forced to accept betrayal, selfishness and ostracization. When yoo lose people in yoor life whom you love. When yoo leave your nice little warm greenhouse and step into my shoes.

Then yoo would know the world isn't just nice and cheery.

I only want to make sure no one hurts the people I love now. And maybe being fierce is just a way to make me less vulnerable. At least I'm truthful unlike the hypocrites out there and it's not as though I killed anyone.

什么都可以吃，就是不可以吃亏。

Have fun living in this fake pleasantville yoo paint for yoorself. I hope yoo never have to wake up from it then because by that day I'll probably be much stronger than you are.





Hey. I'm allowed to be EMO once in a while too. hahaha. but i'm okay now. i don't care about those people who know nuts about me. they can think what they want. I'm not angry at the person who said that though i wish he hadn't. I'm not angsty and full of hatred or want blood out of everyone or what.

Peace out yo.
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